about a minute ago i was jerking off when i thought to myself whats the point, i stopped turned the p*** off and looked for a confession website, not because i need to confess but i need to know that somebody out there isnt an npc and has had a thought like this being 13 its difficult to get through middle school more so when you cant get muscular because of some high ‘metabolism’ or whatever but its a struggle all just to get a piece of paper and never use it again in my opinion or in my brain it makes sense that life isnt a game or a story but instead a test of strength, are you able to be smart, are you able to repopulate, are you able to provide. Its very interesting to think about, many times i have had suicidal thoughts but not for the reasons youd think but instead for reasons like, i wanna see heaven, is hell real and even this is boring lol, i dont know why i get the urge but i can resist easily but as i said before its interesting to think about. Its 1:26am right now and im probably wasting my time right now if anybody has these feelings your probably not an npc and instead normal, for reference im not a bot because if i was i wouldnt waffle this much