I’m autistic and I feel so immensely alone with my special interest. I have a special interest in kids but not in a p*** kinda way, I’m legit fascinated with their psyche and do tons of research into what I can do to teach and help them best. But I’m also an adult man, and all my friends think I’m a freak cuz I love working with kids, I’d happily have my own kid tomorrow and nobody understands what this is like.