Also i didnt want him to think i believed more than i did, so he would talk to me more openly and give away more. At some point i felt like i was playing all kinds of sides because i got lost knowing if anyone was even telling the truth at some point. I was basically convincing everyone i was on their side so they would keep telling me what was going on from their perspective, so i could narrow my answer more and not be clouded by anyone’s potential judgement. But i wasnt lying to anyone about what i thought or felt, i was just holding back what i was actually thinking.