I know you are not going to be attracted to me in the way I want…i know you love me ..more than I have been loving you since some time..or maybe always idk ..but i just know you don’t find my looks or body s*** or attractive or whatever..idk ..and it’s not your fault .. you love me as I am …it’s not your f****** fault that you don’t…but it doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt..that it shouldn’t or couldn’t hurt..it does ..it’s f****** gut wrenching pain I feel when I think about it ..I’m just average looking in your beautiful eyes…all that love and still I’m just average..it’s okay ..I’m sorry but please don’t expect me to be okay with it ..let me grieve and be disappointed