I can’t sleep but I should be. I can’t get this girl off of my mind. She’s all that I can think about, she runs circles in my head prodding me all day. I’m happy, she’s happy.
There’s no reason I shouldn’t be sleeping now. It’s the first time I’ve been in love, and I know that I’m in love now I just don’t know how to handle it. I’ve always been able to handle everything in my life seamlessly. It’s just something completely different now that I am dealing with. I love her It’s just so difficult to bring myself to have to rely on and trust someone else so much even though I want to so badly. It’s difficult to describe what exactly I’m feeling but I like it in a weird way. I love being in love, and I love her