I can’t get over him. Truth be told, I don’t really know how it happened. I reread messages, and it just..happened. I fell so ridiculously hard for my old best friend. I was in an unhappy, emotionally abusive, longterm relationship when we started talking in a s***** way. I’ve always been a bit wild for him, but I really fell so head over heels for him. Looking back at these messages, I could really see why.
I couldn’t wait to wake up to a text.

Anyways, (thankfully) my relationship ended, and I was relieved for multiple reasons. I saw I could be happy again. For over a decade, I never really was kissed, had s**, or even had kind words. This also freed me up to see my old friend.

He lived in another state, and it was so exciting driving there. I dressed up, and drove until I got there. Never-ending I just worked all day, and it was fairly late. I was just so happy to see him. When I kissed him, I wished our lips were glued together. It was so incredibly intoxicating, and familiar, and everything good. I couldn’t wait for him to take my entire soul. And he did.

Everything seemed OK. Then, he didn’t talk to me for like 3 days. He talks to me, and I can’t even remember the reason. Then, we were good again.