I’m burnt out. Depressed. And literally find no joy in life at all.. I work a lot to try to get a head. Which if I had a man that contributed as much as I do. Life be great. Instead I have a man who comes over to my house, trashes my kitchen. Or well let’s just say he may not always be intentionally destroying what I just accomplished but it sure is that way. Example I steam clean my carpet. He comes over doesn’t take off his boots. So why I even clean my carpets. I get done mopping he spills s*** all over my floor every time. His dog pees in my home. I buy a new razor,even though I bought him twice as many it’s still my razor that gets used leaving me with the cheap single blade so ya. I don’t do my shaving like I used to expect my chin he would limit my time alone so I can’t even pluck my face hair so I shave. My days off when I could enjoy life he won’t leave so by time he does I can’t go anywhere due to lack of vision. I can’t even see My family on Christmas I’m just stuck in my home. He totally doesn’t ever hear what I say. He just sucking the light out of me. Three going on four years. I really think I’m gonna kill myself I’d rather die than this