As i sit here contemplating my life at 11:42pm. i realize i havent been the best person/son/husband/father , I have done things i deeply regret in life some i didnt even know were truly wrong till i was older. ive lived 31 years and have barely achieved anything. ive been doing more thinking latley i have 3 lumps on my thyroid that im going in too surgery for friday the 13th of next month. and this health scare really has gotten me too try too make changes ive been trying too make for a better part of my life. i got married at a young age of 25 to a woman i love deeply i didnt treat her very well in the middle of of the five years of our marriage but somehow she is still with me i have been the best father too my daughter i find it hard too bond with her she’s strong willed like her mom and i find that annoying some times. im trying too do better the past year and a half ive been struggling with this. its funny what sickness will do to a person. cause them too change. too try too be better ive tried before just not this hard i suffer from ADHD Aspergers and 22q Chromosome deletion syndrome it makes life harder for me but i try too keep going and im gonna try too be a better Person not get angry or frustrated as much my in laws have been keeping our child so i can focus on getting better theyve been watching her since my menengitis scare in october of this year but i ache too get my daughter back and just do better by my family get a job and not loose it things like that