I still love the man who used to be a Shaolin warrior monk very much. My love for him is so strong. He doesnāt know how much I love him. I love him a lot, really a lot. My feelings for him are as vast as the sky and the earth. He doesnāt know that I am the one who loves him, but it doesnāt matter. Iām aware in my mind that we canāt be together. He is above me, especially in social status because he is an actor. Even if he knew how I felt, it wouldnāt change anything. He would probably think my love is just an illusion, like that of a fan. I also have nothing to offer that would make him happy because I believe we wouldnāt be right for each other. He deserves a woman who is a better match for him, not me, even though Iām crazy about him and really want him, but deep down, I still hope that maybe I could be that person.