My secret, as tough as it is, is that I still love the former Shaolin warrior monk a lot. I’m going crazy over him. I love him deeply. My love for him is at 100%, but I try to hide my feelings so I can focus on myself.

I really love him. I keep coming back here because I can share my feelings without any pressure. I was putting things off again because of him. I was almost done editing a video when I thought of him again.

I don’t want to check the social media of the man who used to be a Shaolin warrior monk and is now an actor, or the woman I think is just a friend. I’m not sure if she is really just a friend or something more. I might see something I don’t want to see again. I’m going crazy over that man, and since I have no one else to talk to, I can confess here again. I love him so much. Really. So much. So very much.