I cheated. He is the most amazing man I have ever met. Super sweet would do anything for me kind of guy. He is overprotective and sometimes I feel like if I wouldn’t have s** with him he wouldn’t love me as much but other than that he is perfect. I’m not. I chose to go to a different college bc my ex went there and I want d to rekindle stuff with him. So I broke up with my perfect man and started dating my ex. Problems broke out immediately I started lieing again. I ended up getting back with my perfect man three weeks into my new relationship I just kept it secret. No one knew me and my perfect man were back together. Eventually I ended up ending things with the ex but stayed with my perfect man. That’s where things got chaotic. I went on a frenzy. While my perfect man was telling his buddies he would marry me, I was sleeping with someone. While his drunk lips were telling girls no bc he loved me, mine were on someone else’s. Trying to fill a hole I cannot find. During the day I was calling my perfect man telling him everything is fine and that I love him and want to marry him and it was all true. so why do i f*** other men??? what is wrong with me??? now his friends know and are going to tell him and my whole lie world is going to break. What do I do? I’m trying to convince myself to stay on earth but I believe maybe I’m to far gone .I’ve fucked up to much. I’m a cheater.
