I loved you and you knew it. I was afraid of losing you and you knew it. You used it to control me sometime. You were a cop, married, and in the closet. You initiated our first time together and then many times there after. I was on your side, helping you when you needed. We could have had a great life together. I was given willing to share you with your ‘married’ life. What happened then? You got what you wanted from me and got scared and greedy. We took different path, but the feeling I had for you never went away. It pained me when I see how you have slowly unraveled what you created it. Your success at work crumbled. We had great s**. You loved it when I was inside of you and came in you. My seeds remained in you. So aside from the great s**, I do hope you take times to reflect on our times together. Think about who were on your side when things were down and helped you to get back up. I have taken the time to reflect our times together. And there were great times and great pains. That’s life.