Today I am calm, grounded so yeah can write my thoughts without being biased. Truth is I have not forgotten anything, so I know I am not standing at the same point where you left. I have moved forward but with me the memories are still tugged close and they get me carried away sometimes. Actually I gave you a spl place in my heart not knowing that will actually broke me into pieces. I loved you more than I loved anyone else this though I later realized and with that realization came a thought may be I have wasted my energy way too much.Now the wall stands too tall and the zeal of climbing mountain is not there. Maturity sits on the front seat rest all are in backseat. I really don’t want to change anything now it all happened must be there was a reason for everything because personally I feel when you could defy the intense pull of my heart and ignore then I must trust that there was definitely something lacking we were never attached in true sense. It was all a thrill the feelings only developed through words written here and there. Not sure whether I deciphered them correctly or not. So I can say I loved more the internet version, the image that my mind captured may be reality is totally different who knows may be you were not here any day all is just mere coincidence.. Fools game I played and in the process completely damaged myself. No worries that shattered phase has passed this me is a, different version. This Me could break promises, this me could walk away without a second thought, this me knows not to plead, this me knows how to sustain alone but this me also knows to love silently giving up all expectations, cos this me believes life is not a dream and we are not living in fools paradise. This me knows nothing will change it’s all same story poured in a new bottle. Presentation counts so it all depends how it is all presented in cryptic way.. I love you still