teaching online is so much harder than teaching in person. i did not get into teaching college to teach online and never see my students in person, never have real group discussions & activities. i’m not good at it. in fact i really f****** s*** at it. i s*** so much, it wouldn’t surprise me if all my students hated my classes. no one teaches you how to be a good teacher, and definitely not how to be a good online teacher. i don’t know how to create good online assignments, lessons, videos, etc. i am an imposter pretending to teach. i hate it and i hate myself for being so awful at it. i don’t know if i even want to keep doing this. i don’t know if i want a full time job teaching college. it would just be more of the same s***. covid & lockdowns really ruined my career for me. i spent decades to get here and now i want to get out. i am so tired of teaching online. i want to quit my job.