I recently travelled with my mother to another country, leaving behind our friends, family and other important things of life. Sure we keep in touch with them, but talking online with friends or family still doesn’t feel like the real thing.
Every day I wake up, and I wait for something that won’t arrive, that being – company.
My mother is always busy with work, and even when she is not, she’s simply not the kind of person to understand me ( which irritates me extremely, but what can you do? ).
So now, I stay home most of the time, sitting at the pc in my own prison of comfort and entertainment yet dreadful loneliness. I can’t go meet anyone, because I don’t speak the language and simply strolling around city or trying to do something productive does not help.
Gaming isn’t as fun as it used to be, reading feels like more of an obligation now than a enjoyable pass time, working out slightly takes my mind off things, but like all things, it’s a temporary solution. I feel like my mind is going to tear and I’m going f***ing insane.
I don’t have anyone to talk to, or even share these pathetic heart-felt messages.
Anyways, I don’t hope for a response, I just wanted to get this off my chest so atleast someone could see it and maybe relate to what im going through.

– Izikiel