Around halfway through the year, I liked her so much that I had to take acetaminophen to diminish the emotional pain of knowing she didn’t feel the same at all. It actually works, go google it. Regular painkillers can reduce emotional pain. I knew she didn’t like me back and I wanted to keep my job. The only thing I like nearly as much as her is my work, so I would just grin and bear it. Without the pills, I would just get frozen in place looking at her and feel like garbage. Especially on valentine’s day. I took my dumb self and just left early. I then dated a bunch of other people, but it all either didn’t work out or they were down and I felt like I was living a lie. Feelings are so powerful but useless and they don’t follow logic.