G******* it. I would. I absolutely would. A lot of people who think they know me, they would think I’m passive I’m not outgoing. The truth is, they don’t know s***, they definitely don’t know me, which is probably part of the reason we don’t communicate now. I never did talk about things in front of them. Really, they don’t know me. I can look back at thing and as long as I remember, I was open, I talked bout things, but there was always something I just never talked about. All girls I kn w before then. Why? Because they where important to me. So why would I hold back things that were important to me, like that, from my friends? It’s because I don’t and never did trust them. If something is important to me, I do it. I communicate very well, I’m confident, I not stupid. I’m confident though. If it is important to me and I believe it’s worth it, I am not even afraid of rejection. I take it well, I don’t want to be that d*** she never wants to see again, even if she has intent. I try to get it. In a straight forward manor. People just don’t ever see it, because, basically what it comes down to, I don’t want it contaminated. There’s only a few, but yeah. And if I do introduce them, it’s because I’m confident that they are not me. Like that one time. In actually did have a bit of confidence in her there that. Like nah…. not over me? Me? She wouldn’t.
My point behind all this, is if I see something, and believe it’s worth a try, I do.
There are things preventing me in this case and it has nothing to do with me not wanting to, I don’t want to cause things. Unfortunately. I have a tendency to do that. In this case I can’t. I can’t ask people for things to make a move without thinking she’s is t stupid. No matter how well intentioned, I feel like she’s going hmmmm? Her family. I know I’m me but there the issue of time, I’m am me, but I don’t think that means much in 2022. Then there is reality. Which is not bad, but what could I possibly expect? Brother. A friend of mine too. I don’t want him going hmmmm? Either. Again, it’s me, but how much weight does that carry on the scale in 2022? Considering.