I pretty long time ago, I was in the backyard with my niece, her friend, my nephew and grandma. I remember looking at her friend’s b*** in her bathing suit, and experiencing lust. I attached a hose to the slide to make it like a waterslide and they slid down on boogie boards. When helping her friend get on, I purposely put my hand underneath so she would sit on it. I’ve felt like a disgusting person ever since. There is nobody I can tell, and no way to make an amend except to never behave like that again, no matter what it takes.
