Sometimes when I enter those same rabbit holes of despair, I think I’m not deserving of anything, and it’s just a cycle of one thought leading to another. I’ve ultimately realized that the idea of reaching academic success is the only goal I have. So, that also means I’m gonna fall into a DEEP depressive episode once I graduate High school. My one goal in life will shatter and there will be no more reason to continue existing…I know I’m ugly, worthless trash, I understand it, but why do I ask for things, does that mean I’m arrogant? I’m the lowest of the low, too much of a burden to ask any more requests.