I think i might not feel things like other people. I know about right and wrong. It is right to help someone who need help or is in pain, and its wrong to cause harm to other people. Althought that is oversimplified, i mean people aremost of the times arrogant self centered and what they define as “need for help” and “feel hurt” are open for discussion. But the things is afer i slowly left the influence of the people around me, about being good, truthful, just, honour and all those things, i actually realised that i was trapped in their expectations. I dont think i ever cared about being good and helping people, i just wanted them to like me. And this realisation really set me free. I was always feeling bad and didnt know why. I was wondering what bad thing did i do? But i dont feel right and wrong, i just know them. I can feel feelings like love, fear, anger, sadness, excitement. But after i realised this this feelings are more real. I did something bad today, something that i would feel bad some time ago, but i feel nothing now. I tried to feel bad and sad by connecting some bad memories to this moment but no effect. Maybe i have some trauma from my life, trying to be someone i am not. I really dont know. you see i had so many limits around and now i am not and it f****** feels good.