I prefer my life to be like before the internet was a thing. I don’t want anyone to be able to look me up anywhere. I never have. I like that dynamic where if we are never to communication in person or on a telephone, people don’t get anything. There’s a rare occasion when I want to be visible to certain people, but it’s not something that can be traced to anything worth anything. It’s a dead end.

I don’t have any social media anywhere. Which might be part of my problem. People want what they can’t have, they want to be able to find anyone, see what they’re up to, what they look like, all that s***. My brain can’t handle any more of the stress that comes with it. People are crazy.

I reject that. I don’t want it. I don’t do it. I prefer to be invisible and not contactable. Not that I hide where I am in real life, it’s no secret, just online. That will never change either. At one time, say 20 years ago, I thought differently. I wanted to be visible. Findable by who wanted to. These days…. Nah. I have gotten mixed up with too many terrible people. I don’t like being visible but I also get a bit of a kick out of starving and smothering certain people to death with my absence. Another the life out of them, allow them to cause probls in their own life because of it, that kind of thing. I enjoy depriving people of me. It’s sick I know, but haha!?! 🙂 I am a really prick. I know it causes problems and I enjoy that in sort of a sick way but it’s a double edged sword. It causes certain people go crazy, lose their marbles and trail around looking, wanting, jonesing, digging. It doesn’t hurt me to not be accessible.