My husband has autism and has a very low libido. I have never felt passionately connected to him despite loving him. He knows that he can’t make me happy and so when other men become attracted to me or fall in love with me, it’s like he almost encourages it. I long for a romantic passionate relationship, but I want it with my husband not with anyone else. I can’t seem to move on and I don’t want to get a divorce because it would feel like a failure to me. We still love each other and we are still trying to work things out. We don’t even have children yet, despite being married for nearly 15 years. I’m so upset.