Of course you aren’t coming, would probably be the last time we ever see each other. This relationship will go the way they always go for you, we both know it, and we both know that you and I should be together instead of who we are with. Timing s**** but you know I wish we had been able to at least kiss one time if nothing else. I’ll be ok aside from the wondering/wishing, I’ve dug myself in deep with this and I am committed. I just hope you up yourself to some real non-childish standards at some point, you’re also old enough to know better so maybe your relationships are some kind of weird self sabotage. Either way I’ll miss you and you’ll always be on my mind. Hope I am for you in the same way……