It’s true,I don’t want to go out or enjoy going out because I don’t want people to see me,Im hideous and I hate myself.
I have not went out to go to the mall ect for 8 months now. I just want to stay home all the time in my comfort zone.
If you’re wondering yes I’m changing myself,I’ve started dieting and lost 5kg in a month, It’s still not enough,I can’t go out until I look presentable,also I have social anxiety which is not helping at all.
My cousin is getting married in 2 months and I’m freaking the f*** out,I have NO CHOICE but to go. I’m so nervous and scared that I would rather have the whole family hate me for not coming. No one takes my self hatred and social anxiety seriously.
