I’m 40 now and have gone “no contact” with my narcisstistic mother a year ago , but I still think I will need to be with her on her deathbed either way – as a way for me to have closure. She has completely destroyed my life so far, but if it’s the last time I would see her I’d be there to tell her how much I hate her… Then I’ll probably cry even if I’ll know…. this nightmare is finally over and I’ll be free.