I am married and am having an affair. I am having an affair with a guy that I have been in love with for the past 4 plus years. He is not interested in marriage but I love him. He knows I am married. I cannot have him completely, but the affair makes me feel like I have a piece of him. My husband is either clueless or doesn’t care. I know I am a bad person and I cannot seem to want to change. I just want to feel some love in this life…