I’m in love with someone I can never have. I love him more than anything. He was my ex boyfriend. We dated when we were 13 and 14, I loved him then and I do now. My ex girlfriend manipulated me into breaking up with him so we could date and I hurt him so badly but doing that. Leaving him for her. All she has given me was years of mental scars and emotional abuse. Me and my ex gf are no longer dating, but still friends, mostly because she has every person in our friend grouped wrapped around her finger so we can never leave. None of our friends know the extent to which she abused and manipulated me, because I never told them, it was none of their business, a private matter, even if I desperately wanted help. My ex boyfriend – Mila – is back in our friend group now and he’s even more fun and amazing and cool and pretty than he used to be. Every day I spend with him I just fall deeper into this pit of knowing I could never go back because I hurt him so badly. And there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s making me lose my mind. I can’t be with him again and it’s all my fault. I can’t stand this, I don’t know what to do. – CM