I like colby brock, I just think I am too old for him. he is adorable and I never ever had a young man like that. I always got these old drunken men at me as a kid and teen and adult and I am not sure why but one day I swear whoever is behind all this wicca is gonna pay for making me so loveless and without s** and marriage and baby. its like feeling like a child with few rights. so naturally I am going to care about someone in the street calling out help me. do you think I am that unhuman for god sakes. I like a lot of men. I don’t know why they all ignored the sweetest nicest girl and wanted to bash me ? I told my therapists this over and over how it hurt when men in law firms or govt dept I worked in would just out and out ignore me or treat me like dirt and it was hurtful. I spent years crying alone. People seem to think because I studied law I should be emotionless and have no personal needs next to my cousin Louise. well how about you ask how I bloodywell am? do you want to know what its like to have wet brain syndrome from something like magic mushrooms and I am not a druggy, not sure if it was encephalitis or from ear infection. abused in hospitals and ambulances, the fear and pain of it. you seem to think this is all funny and its my life! you don’t know the heart break of loosing rick being bashed over him when I loved him so much and I needed him. I needed a man who could give me the loving s** and comforts. why do you keep playing all these games on me with literally every man that is half way cute to me. like seriously. who is doing this wicca? and constantly I am being told ” you missed out, no lillies for you, no man wants you etc” I don’t want an old man cuz I am sick of them.