I am alone…. always.. I don’t know how to tell those around me.
I wish I were never even born. This life is the worst. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I feel. I hate being this gross person that nobody ever considers a human being. Just walk all over me. I don’t care anymore. Why God? Why did you have to make me like this? I just want to be normal. I want to be part of a family. I want my brothers and sisters to care about how I’m doing. We hate each other so much. I cry thinking about how other people love and care for one another. Im nothing to my family. Just a mistake nobody wanted. It’s ok to pretend we aren’t related in school because I’m fat and ugly. It fine, I don’t have feelings or anything. Go ahead and let them bully me. Sibling protection is only for attractive people. Anybody anywhere at any time can just do whatever to me and it won’t mean anything. I wish God had just not made me. Im nothing and I’ll always be nothing. You live it up with your big house and all your cars. Have a great life out there with all your grandkids. Don’t even think about me. Im just a grain of dirt under your boot