And believe me, I have had my own doubts about myself over the last 20 years about what a p************ I am because of all the s***.

But at the same time, when I get away from it get out from the shadow and meet some new people without telling them what I have experienced all the knives in my back, my own behaviour “fighting back” against s*** I can’t even see, it always surprises me I feel these people love, trust and respect me. It’s like it’s always been. It’s an eye opener. It reminds me of what it really is. It’s not sketchy.