Most of the women I knew up until the time I was 30 were extremely sketchy. I would go as far as to say that they as well as the people the allowed into their life are (still) extremely dangerous and I am still on their radar.

All these years later, decades later, if I could go back to when I was stupidly naive and didn’t know as much as I do now I would go back and alter it so I did not get involved with them on a personal level, I would not hesitate. No hesitation. I am definitely not an adventurous person. I like being boring and not “out there”. Less visible.

Regrets. Big regrets. Currently doing what I need to do to, what I can to erase a few things and become less visible from here on. You could say they drove me away. Permanently.