My dad passed on May 29th 2022. I haven’t cried in front of anyone and I don’t know why. I told everyone I’m fine, because when they ask how I’m doing.. I really am fine. But staying up late at night, I cry myself to sleep. I wrap myself in his clothes and spray his cologne on my pillows. He was never really here for me because of his addiction, so having these things now to make me feel like he’s still here, it helps in a way. But I’m not fine. I’ve been binge eating, lying, I’ve been exhausted, and mentally drained.
But again, “I’m fine”