It was only a moment of temptation, i could have relapsed again if i wasnt so lucky. Last 10 months i tried to change. i have learned so many things since then, i have changed so many things since then. And i was so close on doing somthing stupid. I thought i had what it takes to deal with it, but i was wrong i am weak. I need a different strategy. My life is so surreal right now, the things i learnt changed everything and yet i still cant fight. Addiction is no fuvking joke, i dont think i have an addictive personality simply because it doesnt exist. In a very simple explanation we are addicted to things that makes as feel good, makes us feel in danger, excited, because in real life, in every day life it is difficult to find these kind of feelings in relatively pleasureable quantity and quality. In knowledge we can find our strongest weapons.