I can’t hold a relationship with a woman because I was raped by another man. I finally met the right girl but can’t be intimate with her. When I was 18 I was locked up for stealing a car. It wasn’t my first time but Virginia is very strict. Because when I ran from the police I struck another vehicle and a child and his mother were killed, they found me guilty of manslaughter. I felt awful then and I do now. I was sentenced to 6 years in prison at the West Virginia Federal Prison in Hagerstown. I was young. Overweight and naive. Within a week of being there I was beat up. I was robbed of my pillows and blankets and after a few days of getting released from the infirmary for teeth broken after being assaulted, I was beat up again, and raped anally. Thereafter it continued for months till one day I tried to bang myself. Only then did they move me out of general population and into suicude watch and then into solitary confinement.

I live with the horror of what they did to me. I have trouble sleeping because I have nightmares of the pain and the laughing of men watching on as I was stripped of my most basic either of my s********.

I will never be the same and I didn’t deserve it. I can’t hold a relationship and I hate black men. They are all predators and they ruined me. I also have white men. None helped me. They were my own race and turned a blind eye to one of their own being used like a s** doll. No one helped me. I was left to die.

I need help.