it hurts to know that my mom will never truly love me and that all those years i spent trying to be good enough for her were such a waste of time and energy.
i hate seeing people talk about how much they love their moms and want to repay them for helping them and being there for them and sometimes it makes me super mad bc i never had that. i didnt ask to be born and my mother couldnt even show me the love of a mother.

especially now that im queer and not catholic lmao