There are always ways to practice safe s**. (Not just abstinence…which I highly recommend) but to truly be safe. Protecting your partner should be a major priority in your mind and heart. You forfeited your right to a carefree fun romp when you became infected. You might have an issue but you will know who will love you for who you are. Do yourself a favor. Get to know your dates. Really get into their minds. And win their hearts. You really should NOT be having s**…outside marriage. Nor should you lie. Being in a committed….monogamous …forever relationship…should be your goal. You tried the intimate encounter trash. Try to raise your standards and look for people that wont run or …wont screw anything and everything in pants. You just need a chance. I truly pray you will get one.