I love my bf but he’s gone to work abroad. Sometimes, my mind plays games with me and I overthink and display physical forms of anxiety. When he doesn’t call or he tells me something that I dont believe.

For example, he called me in the day saying he gets off work at 10. It was 10:30, I called and he didn’t answer. He called back instantly and said he just got home, like walking into the house. Then he said he was drinking.

Then I asked how is that possible, considering whenever he moves to the front of the door to the house, the wifi doesn’t connect enough to hear one another.

We spoke clear as day. I told him that he was clowning and just laughed it off. It’s actually bothering me but I might be blowing things out of proportion. I dont have much to take my mind off this.

Being at work is a constant reminder of a past relationship that waayyyyy in the back of my mind, I know was beneficial but very toxic.

I think I need counseling to cope. I have the Lord and I pray but I’m struggling. Maybe I’m not praying enough🤷🏽‍♀️