I have been having what could be called an affair with my best friend and past co worker for the last three years. I have a long term girlfriend for nearly 11 years who is becoming friends with my FWB but doesn’t know about our secret connection.
I have considered breaking it off every week or two but I love both of these people so much that I’d rather lose them both than have just one.
I know it sounds selfish but my coworker has never lost interest in me and knows about my gf. My FWB is even fine sharing me with other girls and is interested in becoming a throuple with my gf.

My GF had been in a previous triad as a unicorn but the guy got weird and it imploded. So I know my gf is capable of being in a throuple but I’m trying to slowly get her into my Bffwb. We all held each other and slept in the same bed last night.

I’m confessing this because it makes me feel so lucky to have so much love in my life, I just want to manifest a loving family with the three of us and I feel like this is the first step. I know a lot of people will judge this whole confessions since I’ve been cheating, but as long as she is happy then that’s all that matters. I will say I work my b*** off to keep everyone happy and it feels draining at time leading this dual life but a life not lived; a life that is safe and has nothing new to offer is not one I can live. I grew up with so much hatred and misunderstanding that I just can’t accept t anything like that—and I’ll do whatever it takes to make my ladies and my life together for of love.