I love you , even though secretly, I’m terrified of you . I worry I’ll be awkward when the time comes for me and you to embrace and kiss. I m scared of being pretty. I’m scared of being fat and frumpy. I’m safe right now . But I think about more weight loss. I haven’t told you I’m only 5 lbs heavier than when we met . I’m not sure how you’ll react in 8 months…after I slim down more. I feel good about myself. I love drinking water and exercising. My career is brand new. I’m gonna try soo hard to be a success.