I s******* assaulted my brother when we were kids. Im not even gay. I dont know why I did it, other than the fascination. Im a diagnosed psychopath and s***** sadist. Hes a worse guy than I am, to be honest, but even if he was a good person, Id still be glad I assaulted him. I dont get off on it like I do when I r*** and assault girls. But its exciting that I got away with it. I dont even know if he remembers.