And no, it has nothing to do with the fact that they wouldn’t date me. It’s quite the opposite actually. I mean women who actually love me but are crazy malicious, drama, causing, cunts for attention. Negativity, for attention. I f****** hate that. I have known women, who know women who would cause this kind of trouble. Stress me out so badly, to this day, o’er a decade later, if someone said to me “you can kill her right now and not suffer any consequence” I would gladly do it. Is that bad.

And that’s what I mean by sometimes, being alone is a much more areas free life. I don’t like feeling murderous rage that is drawn out of me intentionally from women who simply enjoy the drama. That is the type of stress that will absolutely kill you early.

I also realize not all women are psycho cunts. I know a few monkey who are really sweet, nice and they like me a lot. It’s a mutual like. Some of them are married, but they really like me alot, and is right back at them. I’m a likeable guy. I am no b******* kind of guy. I’m easy. They are game to see me, and even if they are married, they know what I like, and they sometimes use it. I can ell they make an effort to get close to me and I know they like me as a person. Like I said though, it’s mutual. All you need to do is not be a psycho b**** who enjoys drawing murderous rage out of people simply because you are a f****** psycho yourself.

The psychos are just misguided. They think their behaviour os what all men want. They are dead wrong. Dead f****** wrong. Like I said I would f****** murder a few of them if I got the ok. I like my life, it’s more valuable than they are, obviously I wouldn’t do that (unless Armageddon we declared) l, is just a fantasy, and it’s what I mean about the stress factor and early death. It’s in the distant past, but is still there. Always will be.