Last night I felt an irresistible urge to m*********. I jerked off in bed and a loud moan escaped from my lips. I know my mother heard me since we’re in my studio apartment, and she was awake. After that I went to the toilet without a word and jerked off two or three more times. This morning I told my mother I would move out of the apartment in the town where we normally live (I work here in another, bigger town). I need a man and I can no longer put my parents in a situation where they listen to me while I’m c******. I’ve been m*********** since the age of 15, I’m 24 now. I used to be quiet but now I simply can’t have a silent o*****. And there are usually several of them in a row. I know how to protect myself from pregnancy. It’s up to us women to take care not to get pregnant. As somebody wrote, I am subconsciously so afraid of pregnancy that the very thought of getting pregnant turns me on. My mom used to scare me about getting pregnant and my dad used some extremely unpleasant words. But I’m already an adult and I’ve proven that I know how to take care of myself regarding that matter. I want children one day, of course. My neighbors heard me moan and honestly, it does turn me on a bit. I can’t wait to feel that sweet pain in my p**** again while having s** with a guy. I know the pain will always be there since I have polycystic ovaries, but I don’t mind it. The pleasure I get while getting fucked obscures every other feeling. I need a male body leaning over me and touching me all over with his d***, then f****** me senseless as I’m writhing in delight. My womb craves for male sperm. I wish I had a v******* or a d****. But nothing compares to a live human body; blood, flesh, lust in his eyes. I’m willing to live with a man sometimes in the near future.