I don’t feel bad for leaving you. I don’t care if I’m a bad person. I f****** hate you so much. I am sorry for making you believe that I liked you when in reality I felt pressured to accept. I didn’t want out friendship to come to an end. I didn’t want to be with you, I never did. I was playing a game with your feelings and I’m sorry. I am also sorry for leaving. I left you and the group because having friends and a boyfriend like you is so mentally exhausting, so I did both of us a favor, and I disappeared. I know you would remember when I would take 2-3 week long breaks ignoring everyone, including you, then would randomly come back online. It was because your so mentally draining, and I hate you for that.
