I’m a medical doctor with addictions. After traumatic emotional experience I started to do drugs as escape form my own feelings. Now I’ve been doing at least one of these – MDMA, Molly, snow, crystal, shrooms – plus alcohol every weekend to cope with my emptiness, depression, anxiety, loneliness and emotional pain. And I feel like I’m failing my family, myself, my degree and all doctors overall. But right now I can’t stop, I can’t and don’t want to deal with all the emotions overpowering me. I don’t want to. But I don’t want to be seen as an addict too. I don’t want to be judged by the same people I belong to – doctors. I’m just lost and need help that I’m too afraid to ask in real life in fears of being judged.