You’ve been so distant, not a lot phases me with you anymore. You’re like a shadow that was there but left. I replaced you with me, found myself. I’m no longer the person that loved you so strongly. I have no desire to please you, I want to please myself. I dreamed that we would help each other side by side, but you didn’t come along. I see you’ve made decisions that haven’t been good for you and that kills me that you fell backward instead of forward. I miss you, but I’m not the same person that loved you so strongly. I’m disappointed that you didn’t want to hold onto us but I’m sorry, that person isn’t here now, she left. The person who is here now would rip your fuking head off before she’d allow you to hurt her or anyone in her family ever again. Sorry. Sometimes when you shake things up, the coins don’t fall back in places that benefit you anymore. I guess you could say I rolled under the sofa but kept rolling, but then found myself in a place where I can’t even see you. You’ve been blocked by something very bright that I can’t really take my eyes from. Let’s face it. You really only wanted to use something about me and then throw us away anyway. I like you too much for the bad things that would come down on you, and they definitely would have, for real.