I am a white male living as an owned submissive and domestic servant to a black d*********. I am very well cared for and respected. She provides for all my needs and her income is from online/virtual d*********, findom, intwenet training of other subs as well as helping other women achieve dominance in their own relationships, she does not use me in the sessions other than the training and assistance to other women, in which I am the pratoce object. A few times she has hosted a budding dominant woman in our home and done demonstrations using me. A core of our dynamic is her strong belief system that many men but especially white men have lost their way and relevance, and are overly obsessed with their own c****. She likens white men to little boys obsessed with their newfound p****, and much of our interaction is more or less mother son roleplay. I attend to her personal and domestic needs. She never has to lift a finger and i do all the boring things like pay the bills and keep the house running. On matters of life or finance she asks my input and thoughts and treats me as an equal in many ways. She will very rarely take a non sub non white male lover but that is only a few times a year when she feels the need. I please her orally, or with toys, including a s*******. I am given common releases but it is normally in her arms or at her breast at my own hand, with occasionally it being at her hand. I am usually clad only in a diaper for wetting only, if any clothing at all. I am locked in a chastity device much of the time, but she has regular wishes to see my incredibly small c*** constantly erect and dripping. When I am allowed to release she feeds it to me, whether directly from her hand or by putting it on her breasts for me to suckle and lick off. I sleep warmly loved and content in her arms every night. I get regularly light to moderate but not brutal spankings most days as a bonding thing not as punishment
. She delights in tormenting me with teasing and edging and denial, and she has taught me the value of ruined o***** as my main release. She will tease me with the concept of s** with her by rubbing the head of my c*** against her, or having me thrust in her hands or against or between her a** or thighs. She lives to see me writhe and squirm with intense pressure and crushing of my testicles, will sometimes put me through things like sounding or needles in my testicles. She has long told me that eventually she will physically destroy my balls.
She usually mounts me with a s******* at least weekly but more often every couple of days. After our first anniversary, she modified one thing. Based on my devotion and loyalty to her, and how happy I have made her, she had me thrusting into her hands as she lay under me. She told me she loved me for the first time, but also warned me to remember my place and not say a word or move without her permission. She told me to not break eye contact with her and guided my erection to her p****, and the sensations of heat and wetness were nearly impossible to bear. I begged her to not tease me this way, and she reached to my hips and pulled me down and into her. I was struggling not to c** immediately and I remembered her first lessons to me, that she would never allow a white man’s sperm to defile her p****. She locked her legs around me and kept me in her as i fought for control and told me to breathe and be still. She told me occasionally to thrust with my hips but only once or twice at a time. Eventually she told me to stay stil and began to move her hips under me. Despite what she had told me about never letting a white man defile her, she told me it was ok, and to c** for her. I was in tears as i felt myself spasm into her and she held me down tight to her and told me to rest. As soon as I had caught my breath she told me that I knew what I had to do, and I did. I eased off her and lay on my back so she could sit over my mouth as I cleaned her of my own c**. When she was sure I had gotten it all she climbed down and pulled me to her and told me I was a good boy for smelling like mommy’s p**** then she kept me at her breast all night. The next morning she had me bathe and douche her and told me how happy and proud she was of me and to remember what a special thing she had given me. I was spanked and locked up and we went about our day. Later that day she was in tears and I asked what was wrong. She would only say that she was sorry for what she had to do. Told me to go wait in the spare bedroom. I could only hear when the doorbell rang and shortly after could hear how some man was f****** her loud and long. She eventually came to me and had be bathe her again, witha spanking and breast time. Now for each anniversary she will allow me inside her but it is always followed by her having another man lay with her shortly after.