i will try to distance myself from the world first then my family… i dont think my family can take the pain knowing that one day their brother/son might not be able wish them a new year or xmas again. i just don’t have purpose anymore to them nor to anyone else. i was the reason my mom passed away and my father being unemployed. i was the reason my family had to make so many sacrifices just for me to end up saying this on a f****** website because im a f****** coward. i couldn’t even protect my closest friend from a car crash because i was not there to save her, i didnt Even tell her that i was in love. my heart f****** hurts knowing that i am nothing but baggage, a f****** curse to people surrounding me… if i cant save them, then they just leave. i am not here for sympathy nor am i here for f****** reasoning on why there is still more to life than what is presented . i just came here to say this knowing at least someone out there a random stranger would know that i tired i tried
