I wish things had been drastically different for me, my family growing up was beyond dysfunctional, had a psychotic retard for an older brother who put me through every kind of abuse you could possibly imagine, was an outcast at school because of my musical tastes, and the few friends I did acquire during those years all took advantage of me or did me dirty somehow besides 2 who I am still friends with now. I spent my 20’s being awful right back to everybody who was to me, but for some reason I was the only person held accountable for my actions, everyone else was perfectly fine and ok to do the things they did to me. When the 30’s hit I cut off distanced myself from all of those awful people from my past, in turn they sent random strangers to stalk and harass me online, prank phone calls, etc., but of course when I confronted them in real life they had no idea what I was talking about and had nothing to do with anything. Pathetic. 40’s are here and I have removed myself from all social networking, I simply don’t need or trust anyone I don’t know in real life or see on a regular basis of some sort and that’s how I’m staying. I wish I had done this half a lifetime ago however, would’ve saved me so much trouble, drama, and unnecessary nonsense. If I am in fact all the horrible things people say I am then obviously there’s no sense in hanging around where I’m not wanted. Punchline there is that made people even more upset at me, I was supposed to let them do and say terrible things to me forever because it made them feel better? And why would you want to have someone in your life you can treat that way? What the f*** is wrong with you?
