You: miserable, crying all the time…

… I’d be a ‘listener’… anonymously, from across the miles… but I can’t think of a simple way to share contact info….

…………… no matter that, you need to practice/rehearse ‘investing yourself’ in others (in just that sort of a way)…

because THE EFFECTS OF your not letting it out, are likely to SNOWBALL and aggravate your feelings much more. Being able to address just your feelings, withOUT the added impact of your stresses OVER not releasing those feelings in any direction being added, would afford you a great advantage toward overcoming.

I hope you take small steps forward very soon.