I am planning an affair with someone from my past I had never considered s*******, but is really the only person out there these days willing to f*** me. My wife lost interest years ago, I’ve tried discussing it with her over and over again and it just goes absolutely nowhere. Female friends of mine who I’d very much consider a real relationship with have confessed having interest in me over the years, but only after my wife and I got together of course when they felt there was no danger in telling me, because for 11 years I have stayed loyal, in every relationship I ever had I stayed loyal, and besides this one it always got me hurt, cheated on, and various other things like that. I’ve even told my wife I’m at an absolute all time loss about what we are supposed to do, she just acts like everything is fine and I’m crazy for thinking otherwise. Like I sat the woman I am talking to is not someone I never considered s******* in the over 20 years I’ve known her, it’s just easy and there for the taking. She’s also married so I know we are both in the same boat and have the same things to lose. I’d much rather it be someone else or even moreso wish my wife would get it together and do these things with me but it’ll work for the time being anyway……